have you ever think about your feeling when you lose someone you love?? i have.
few days ago, when i was on the way home and listening to music, suddenly, i remembered of my grandmother and felt miss her a lot. but, at that time i got at home, she already slept.
the next morning, when i was cleaning my house, i saw her slept. she wasn't feeling well. i stopped working, and then looked at her face for few minutes and cried. i felt guilty with all i've done. i never have time to talk with her, don't understand what she wants and never realize that she love me so much. she take care of me and my brothers since we were born. eventhough i know she's exists and getting older day by day, but as i told before...i ignored her, never understand her.
i told my mom how i feel. she said: "so now, you must have time to talk with her and say that you miss her a lot. she will be happy"
now i know how much she meant to me, how much i love her. she spent her lifetime to take care of us. i promise will not hurt her feeling anymore. i don't wanna lose her. i want her to see my wedding, to see my children. i'm sorry grandma...i promise to fix our relationship from now on and will take care of you. i thank God to make me realize of this.
love you so much Grandma...
we never know how much she/he meant to you until you lose her/him.
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